it cotninues

okay, so maybe i’m just an ungrateful brat. i don’t know anymore.
it’s just… i’m living at my mother’s home rn. and it feels so hard for me to do anything outside of family. say, i want to play a game with friends. well i fucking can’t, because “hey you wanna go walk outside ?” “hey you wanna play a game with us” “yeah we invited xyz to eat tonight” - i can’t just do things on my own .
i’ve spent the last few weeks thinking i wanted to just be left alone. y’know, completely alone friends are fine cuz i mean if i tell them i need the time theyll understand.
but in my family i just can’t, like. it’s impossible. cuz the house is absolutely too big for a single mother of [redacted]. so she needs me to do stuff when i just want to be isolated.

i mean, i do know and acknowledge that having a family is like, a really good thing. but i don’t know, i feel like it’s too much ? i don’t know

im not gonna write more there today cuz im tired

bye